Some library in Fairfield, NJ

25 10 2007

So, I out of curiosity I looked up to see where the local library was in the area and I go to their website and, the first thing I notice in the left hand corner is “FREE PUBLIC LIBRARY”. Hm,  I wasn’t aware that some libraries charge you to borrow books, I thought it was always a free public resource. (Unless, they make you pay a 50 cents toll before letting you enter the library, which I wouldn’t be surprised knowing how things are runned around here…) . Or, maybe people here are just not interested in reading, a lot of times I pass by a Barnes & Noble here and there would be only a few cars in the lot, and I’m guessing most are the employees working there. So I’m thinking that by the library “advertising” itself as a free public library, they’re targeting the frugal sort that don’t even know books can be borrowed without hidden charges… and most likely because they’re illiterate to begin with.  Oh, and don’t get me started on the “Adult Crafts” (learn how to make home-made blow up dolls or erotic cakes…just kidding, actually I don’t know) and “Turn off the TV” (WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO, BESIDES WATCH TV???) events. Man, they’re fishing BIG time.    


Some things cannot be seen differently even through change

8 08 2007

The other day I was at my aunt’s place in Edison and she looked at me and said even though I’m an adult now she can only see my as a little boy because she hadn’t seen me in fourteen or so years. “Even right now you’re drinking beer, I still can’t believe you’re drinking that bottle of beer…you will always be 10 years old to me” she said. I laughed and I remember a similar feeling when I saw our family’s old house for the first time since I was little kid…going back there a lot of what I loved most was gone. A lot of the oak trees that were in the backyard were cut down, the bridge my dad built was falling apart, my playground was gone, a new 3 car garage was built, and they painted the house.  But even though things had changed so much, I remember staring at certain spots around and I could feel my past, all the fun I had, the big birthday parties, watching the fireflies at night, not a worry in the world. It was the most peaceful and joyous time in my life and I’ve always wanted to find that feeling again. Of course, now just beginning to find my niche in the world I probably won’t have the opportunity to live such a care free life until I retire or become financially secure. In a way, it made me sad inside knowing that I would have to wait for that kind of harmony again. Perhaps, it could come sooner rather than later and that’s all I can hope for. I’ve dreamt of that day many times.  I guess it goes to show how strong memories remain in the present even after so many years , especially beautiful ones that you can’t let go.